epicgirl1

It smear the fog off the mirror so that I could see my face. All those nightly routines Covering myself with make up to hide the imperfect marks All that is washed out now. All I see now is a stupid girl who could never learn to be pretty My eyes are plain brown and so was my hair There is nothing special about me. I don't have a 'pretty' nose either. I'm just normal... And I hate myself for that. I tried my best to fit in I even cut and dyed my hair because 'they' said it didn't look good Even now I could still see the brown showing through the dye I hated knowing I am a fake I started listing all the 'popular' trends and songs that came

Tired... Tired of worrying Tired of painful memories Tired of being laughed at or talked about Tired of putting myself down Tired of fakers Tired of leaving others behind Tired of watching the world go by and not slowing down long enough for me to enjoy  my self But most of all I'm tired of being scared and running away from my past. So if you ever see me smile just remember.... I'm tired.

“Jack please talk to me” “Leave me alone Ash” I couldn't stop him from walking away. I wanted to reach out and grab him but there was something in my way.... I didn't know what. Someone was holding me back. ·A month ago- Beep Ugh that stupid alarm won’t let me sleep. I don't feel like waking up right now because right now I couldn't think of a better place to be then my bed and man I swear for some reason it literally feel like a fricken cloud. Awww I feel like staying here forever. But.... “Ashley time for school” my mom said. “Ugh. Coming!” I knew better than to stay in

You promised you wouldn't leave. You promised you'd stop the cutting. Don't you know I cry every time I see you hurt yourself. You don't have to feel alone... We all would miss you I would miss you... Please- don't hurt yourself no more... I guess you gave up that night when I forgot to lock the medicine cabinet. I blamed myself... That morning when I held your hand on the bathroom floor... When you broke your promise, and only left behind a note saying. 'Goodbye - Andy' Goodbye? Is that all you could say? Was you life that miserable that you left me without giving me and explanation? I cried holding you and never wanting to let go... Could

I remember it was dark... I remember my brother before he got into drugs and him telling me to shut up because I bugged him. I remember the car turning and falling down that raining hill . I remember my brother driving behind that very wheel The way he wasn't himself and me five year old girl unknowingly almost came faced to face with death. And seeing my grandma take her last breathe, after telling my brother to slow down and shielding me from the glass shattering. Then... just like that the noise lost in mist of beeping and everyone screaming. I remember the pain I felt on my spine and consciousness slowly slipping out of my mind. I remem